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Humility and Being Humble – Teal Swan

This has to be one of my favorite Teal videos yet. So many have been led to believe that humility is good, healthy, and brings them closer to God. I, on the other hand, knew this wasn’t accurate (I’m indivisible from God) but I could never put it to words as she so insightfully does.

I have been humble all my life. I used to allow others to take advantage of me in home and in school by staying humble while others received everything and I didn’t. I HAVE GAINED NOTHING BY DOING IT!

All of my life everyone thought that the best thing about me is that I’m humble. You could ask anyone who knows me what is my most lovable personality trait and they would say that it’s my humility. All teachers in school praised me for my humility and used me as an example of a good person. Mankind truly is obsessed with humility and sees it as one of the highest human virtues.

But the truth is that deep down I wasn’t happy. The fact that I was humble was caused by my extremely low self esteem and feeling of insignificance. I used to believe that I was worse than everyone else, that I’m not good enough and that I’m predestined for a life full of suffering. There is nothing admirable in humility.

We should give up on humility. It doesn’t serve anyone. It causes us to live half of the life we came here to live. It goes against our true nature.

So here is my list of things in which I’m good at:
I am great at recreating myself, losing myself and putting the pieces back together again.
I am a very supportive, kind person.
I am great at making the best out of any situation.
I’m great at thinking complex stuff, I get the whole picture very easily
I’m a gifted writer.
I excellent at finding the perfect gift for people.
I’m great with children, I love to play with them and accompany them on their journey.
I’m a compassionate listener
I am good at admitting my own downfalls
I am good in being grateful for Teal.

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Teal’s workshop in Prague

On Saturday I had the opportunity to attend Teals workshop in Prague. As many of you know, Im her huge fan. When I found out that Teal is coming to Czech republic, I knew that I have to go. There is no way I would miss such a great opportunity. If Im lucky, maybe I can meet her and ask her a question… I was hoping for it. Two months before the day of the workshop I started to count days which are left until Teals workshop :D.

The day had finally arrived and I visited Prague. I had a chance to see Teal two days in a row. On Friday she had a presentation about the importance of emotions at the Festival Evolution. You can watch it here:

I had a very good impression from Teal on Friday. Not that I have expected she isnt good live :D. I expected her to be awesome. And she was awesome! 🙂 But it surprised me that she seemed so humble, so fragile and so vulnerable. From her videos I had the impression she has a sassy leader personality. And there she was, so innocent, like a princess. 🙂

I enjoyed her presentation very much. Ive learned a lot that day. She was using a simple language to make it easier for the translator to translate it to Czech, so it was much more understandable for me. I could understand her teachings even more deeply.

While she was talking on stage, she also made eye contact with members of the audience. She looked into my direction many times and I felt like she was staring right into my eyes a few times. In that moment, I almost suffered from a heart attack and fell of my chair! 😀 Her stare was so intense, I felt like she was seeing my soul. But considering the way Teal sees the world, its clear to me why she looked towards me so often. Me and my friend, which was sitting right next to me, must have been radiating the strongest vibration of love and appreciation in the room :). Its hard to miss that vibration! :D. I bet that most people came to the presentation just out of curiosity. They may have seen a few Teal videos and thought she was interesting, so theyve decided to come see her live. But I have seen each and every one of her videos (multiple times), Ive read all of her blog posts, I stalk her everywhere I can on the internet… Im such a big fan of hers, you could hardly find a bigger one :D. From the beginning to the end of the presentation, my mind was filled with thoughts of love and appreciation for Teal and what shes doing. I was so excited to sit in the same room just a few meters from her. I bet I was radiating there like a nuclear plant :D.

The workshop took place on Saturday morning. I was surprised how many people came to the workshop. There were people from all over the world that gathered just to see Teal. From so many people, I couldnt find any of my internet friends. I was scared that I will be left alone and I wont get to know anybody. Thankfully I was wrong. Right behind me was sitting a group of young English speaking people. I spoke to them and found out that they come from different countries all over the world. It was interesting to listen to their stories about how they came across Teal’s teachings. Im so happy I could meet these wonderful people :).

The workshop was in form of questions and answers. Everyone who had a question raised their hand and Teal picked one person whose question was most in alignment with the vibration of the whole group. Teal described it that the person with the right question lights up for her. Then that person went on stage and discussed the issue with Teal.

I could relate to all the questions asked on that workshop. Most people asked personal questions. When we have uncovered the root of the problem by each question, we discovered that we all have the same problem –  we dont feel good enough. We feel unloved, we feel like theres something wrong with us. Ive realized in the middle of the workshop how normal I actually am :D. I used to think I was the only one struggling with self worth and feelings of worthlessness. But in reality there is no person on this planet that hasnt experienced such thing at least once in their life. We are all struggling with the same thing. Ive learned many new things about myself in the workshop. Ive realized towards what kind of things I have resistance and how should I work on myself. It was an intense healing process.

I was raising my hand throughout the whole workshop hoping to ask my question. But Teal always picked someone else. The end of the workshop was near and I was afraid that I wont get the chance to ask my question. When Teal said we have time for the last question only, I was focusing all of my attention on being picked. And it worked! Teal picked me and my question! 🙂 Now I had to go on stage, sit next to her and discuss my problem with her. I was very nervous because I hate being the center of attention. So many people were looking at me and there I was sitting in front of Teal. She was scanning me with her eyes and I felt like she was seeing deep corners of my soul. It was almost like I was sitting on that stage naked! 😀 I knew I had to calm down because Teal is surely able to see my panicking thoughts. But it didnt help and I literally felt like the most awkward person on this planet while I was sitting there. I started to calm down when I was sitting there for quite some time. I started to enjoy it and I was so excited that Teal now knows about my existence and Im able to talk to her! 🙂

Teal and I talking on stage

I asked Teal a question about young people in this society. I told her about my sister and how my parents are forcing her to only learn math, because that is the subject she is worst at. Shes doing good in all other subjects, but my parents are only forcing her to solve math problems and take extra lessons. They ban her from doing anything she enjoys – she cant go out, she cant meet her friends, she can’t use the internet… They come up with all sorts of punishments to force her to do what she hates to do the most. I can relate to the case of my sister because its the same thing my parents did to me. Our parents think that they own us. They think that they know what is best for us. And we, the children cant do anything about it. We cant just quit going to school, then our parents will go to jail… When an adult person says that they hate their job, Teal would say that they should quit that job and start doing something they enjoy instead. But what can a child do when they hate school? (Im sure most kids hate school). We cant just quit. So I asked Teal what to do in such case.

Teal told me that she understands my situation. In this society, the educational system is horrible. We send our children to jail. We force them to learn things that are mostly absolutely unnecessary for our lifes. Teal admitted that she also was horrible at math in school :D. And in real life you dont need math, unless of course you choose some math oriented career :D.

According to Teal the most beneficial thing for my sister to do is to release resistance she has towards math. She can play a game where she pretends to be a science nerd. How would that science nerd act in solving a math problem? Thanks to that kind of attitude math isnt that bad. Another good idea is to reward yourself after successfully solving a math problem. Teal demonstrated it on the example of Skittles (but she told us that sweets our unhealthy, maybe we can try it with something more natural). But we can play a game that after each accomplishment we eat or do something enjoyable. We have to do anything that makes that subject more acceptable for us.

Teal answering my question

I think Teal said something like that to me. Im not so sure about it because while I was sitting there, I was kind of in an altered state of consciousness :D. I didnt experience time normally and I didnt even realize which words were coming out of my mouth. It was all so unreal. I still cant believe it happened :D. But it must have happened, I have photos as proof. At the end Teal hugged me! 🙂 Its a dream come true for me :). Just before the workshop began, I met a girl that said she hugged Teal. I was so jealous and I didnt know what can I do to get a hug from Teal. But I got it! Yay :D. It was amazing.

On the next day, Blake invited us (people from the workshop) to go on a walk around Prague. It was amazing, Ive met people from all over the world. Theres nothing better than finding people who are on the same wave length as you are and think in a similar way. I felt like I have finally returned to my home planet :D. I never felt such a connection with anyone like I did with these people that Ive met in these 3 days. Even though I talked to some of them just for a little while, I still felt like they understand me better than some people I know for years.

Tealers in Prague

Teals workshop was a wonderful experience! I dont regret anything at all. If Teal ever comes back or if she visits my country (Slovakia), Im coming without a shadow of a doubt. Its worth it just for the amazing people you meet here. And Teal is absolutely amazing and it’s awesome to see her live. 

I also want to thank everybody who made this workshop possible. Youve done a great job. I havent met anyone who wouldnt enjoy the workshop. To all who participated in the workshop – huge THANKS! :).

 

Want to Be Happy? Give Up on Happiness!

It seems like Teal is reading my mind because I have been thinking about this subject this entire week and she just made a video on that!

I find this video very helpful because I can identify with everything she says. I always felt like I should be happy even when I wasn’t. I felt like I must be doing something wrong. I began to feel like I was destined to suffer. This only made me more unhappy because I just could’t get my life right.

Anyone who feels like happiness is beyond their reach should watch this video:)

The Secret To Why You Can’t Overcome Your Problems

Today I’m going to share with you an article. It’s a transcript of Teal Scott’s video named “The Secret To Why You Can’t Overcome Your Problems.” If you’re someone that is obsessed with self improvement like I am, I encourage you to read this:

We try to solve our chronic problems. We try to become the people we want to be. But it just doesn’t work. We keep on doing the same things. Why is this the case and what do we do about it? 

Whether you are self-help junkie, or a spiritual connoisseur, or just someone who is curious to hear another perspective on life, one thing is for sure, if you are reading this article, you like the idea of self-improvement. But how do we accomplish this improvement? Everyone seems to have a different answer. But most of these self-improvement techniques don’t work. And they don’t work for one giant reason. They put you at war with yourself. They pit one aspect of yourself against another aspect of yourself. Have you ever noticed that it feels like you cannot overcome your problems no matter how hard you try? Well I’m here to tell you today that you cannot overcome your problems because; you cannot overcome what is inside yourself or part of yourself. As soon as you identify with something, it IS you. And from that point forward, to try to overcome those things, is to put one part of you at war with another part of yourself. Even negative traits (which are part of you) can never be eradicated from you. They can only be transformed into their highest aspect.

When we suppress our emotions, which all of us must do at one point or another in our early lives, those suppressed emotions become part of our personality. Our problems become part of our personality. And as soon as they become part of our personality, they become part of our identity. We begin to see them as ourselves. Resisting any aspect of yourself is asking for emotional disaster. It is self-hate. Regardless of whether you resist something positive within yourself or negative within yourself, it is self-hate, and therefore it is self-destruction.

So what is the solution? The solution is Exaltation. The concept of exaltation is an ancient alchemy concept. Simply put, to exalt something is to transform something into its highest spiritual aspect. For example, the old alchemists thought that the exalted form of metal was gold. If we are to live better lives, where we are not continually made unhappy by our negative personality traits, we must take each personality trait we do not like and first recognize it within ourselves. We must then accept it by both owning it and finding a way to approve of it. And then we must find a way to amplify that personality trait into it’s most in alignment or exalted expression.

Here’s an example of exaltation: Let’s say I felt unloved as a child, and was punished for trying to get the love I needed. I suppressed those feelings of resentment and powerlessness. Over the years, the powerlessness and resentment has become part of my personality. It has caused me to exhibit certain chronic behaviors. Chief among those behaviors, it has caused me to be an energy vampire. Because I believe I am not allowed to ask for the things I need, I manipulate people so I can get the energy I need from them. This personality trait is so much a part of me, that one could say it is part of my personality. I cannot overcome this problem and I can’t eradicate it from my personality. It is part of who I am now. So, my only choice is to take that negative personality trait and make that same personality trait into something positive. Because I am an energy vampire, I am a master at manipulating energy. I could become a brilliant energy worker. I have the capability of consciously pulling in negative energy and transmuting it inside my own body. This means I can feed off of illness and discordant energy rather than stealing life force from people’s bodies. I can manipulate energy to heal people. Also, being an energy vampire, I am a master at mental chess. I play mind games with people. So, the highest aspect of that trait (what we call the exalted aspect) is to play mind games with people that benefit them. I could become a brilliant counselor or psychologist. I could outsmart other people’s egos and help them to see things about themselves that they are totally unaware of.

Describe yourself. What problems do you have? What do you feel are the negative parts of your personality? Be very honest about what traits you don’t like about yourself. Once you have your list, spend some serious time thinking about what the highest and best use of those traits could be. What is the positive exalted form of those negative traits?

Maybe I am dark. The exalted form of being dark could be that I am a brilliant shadow worker. I am a seasoned veteran when it comes to working with the subconscious and with the thoughts that scare people. I can guide people into bringing awareness to and healing whole parts of themselves that they have been trying to avoid. Also, dark energy is powerfully captivating because it frightens people. I can embrace that energy instead of trying to lighten myself up and use it to capture people’s attention and break them out of the monotony of their lives.

Maybe I am anxious. The exalted form of being anxious could be that I am sensitive to the energies around me. I could be a talented interior decorator because I can feel the way that energy moves around a room. I am sensitive to the placement of objects and the influence that colors have on our emotions. I could design homes for people that made them feel exactly how they want to feel upon coming home.

Maybe I am a bully. Bullies push people. The exalted form of being a bully could be that I push people to be their best. I embrace my forceful energy and use it in situations where people could benefit by that force, such as when someone needs especially strong encouragement. Bullies establish dominance within a social group. The exalted version of this dominance is leadership. I embrace my leadership ability and take charge when other people feel as if they need direction. I take initiative. I can rally people to cooperating with one another.

Exalting your negative personality traits and problems is not about going to war with yourself. It is profoundly self hating and counterproductive to want to rid yourself of those traits. It is resistant and whatever we resist, persists. So the key to solving your problems is to find the highest and best use for those so-called negative traits. Fall in love with what you hate about yourself. Turn metal into gold on an internal level. Embrace and own the person that you are. Quit trying to turn yourself into something or someone else.

Source: http://www.thespiritualcatalyst.com/articles/the-secret-to-why-you-can-t-overcome-your-problems

Dealing with self worth

Through the process of shadow work I found out that my core belief is “I am worthless”. I can see this core belief being active in many situations in my life. These are a few examples on how is this belief manifesting itself in my life:

  • I care about what other people think of me.
  • I am afraid to express myself.
  • I hate speaking in public.
  • I feel guilty when I make a mistake.
  • I am afraid to talk to other people because I fear rejection.
  • I have no close friends, I keep everything to myself because I am afraid of judgment.
  • I do what other people expect me to do and not what I want to do.

This belief is present in pretty much all of the areas in my life. It is everywhere I go. I deal with it like 100 times per day. Today I am ready to change it. I am going to use Teal Scott’s process on changing a belief.

I have already completed the first step which is identifying the belief. Now I have to decide if this belief is beneficial or detrimental to me. This belief is definitely detrimental. It is limits me in every way. I can not grow into my highest potential as long as I have this belief. It does not allow me to express myself. Because of this belief I always attract people into my life that are making me feel worthless.

Now I have to decide what would I like to believe instead. I would like to believe that I am worthy. I would like to believe that I am enough.

The next step is to determine the emotions that are holding me to the belief. There is always a hidden positive intention behind any belief. If we did not believe that it is in some way, shape or form serving us, it would make no sense to have such a belief. When I am being really honest with myself, I found out, that when I believe that I am worthless I get pity from other people. That pity feels like people care about me. When I think thoughts like “I am not good enough”, I give up the responsibility of having to try something new. I give up the responsibility over my own life and my own decisions. I have to decide if the emotional pay off is worth keeping the emotion or not. To me it is not worth it. I would rather know and express my true worth and people will naturally care about me. I am ready to take the responsibility for my life and try new things.

Now I will seek out alternative evidence and alternative explanations which undermine the validity of my belief “I am worthless”: For years I took my mothers words and actions as a proof that I am worthless. But when I was little and made decisions that were embarrassing to my mother, she was the one who felt worthless. She then yelled at me and expressed her anger, because I made her feel worthless. I simply adopted her own belief.

I had no friends growing up. This one can be easily explained. When I felt like I was not good enough, other kids felt that rejection and that fear that was present within me and they did not bother to talk to me. They were simply reflecting to me my own rejection of self. I know I have the belief that I am worthless for many years now. I am aware of the fact that I can change it. And yet, after all these years, the belief is still here. It means I failed in changing my belief ans that means I am worthless. The reason behind why this belief is still here is because I am invalidating it. I reject it. I say it has no positive meaning, I resist it. And what you resist persists. It does not mean I am worthless.

What I will do now is that I look for evidence and proof to back up the beneficial belief I would rather believe. I ask myself this question: How am I good enough?

  • I have had successes.
  • I successfully completed high school.
  • I am now a collage student.
  • I have people in my life who love me for who I am and appreciate me.
  • I have worth which is inate.
  • Unconditional love is what I was created from.
  • When All That Is created me, it obviously thought I deserved to exist.
  • Therefore I must be equal to every other creation, otherwise I would not have been created.

As the next step I am going to be using affirmations that I do believe. I begin to tell myself things like this on a daily basis: I value myself because I care. I am an interesting person. I know many things that could help other people. I am smart and loving…

The last step is taking some time for my reality to change itself. I can not expect myself to be completely self loving at this moment. When I spent 15 years of my life hating myself, it would be cruel to expect from myself to completely change it in a second. I also can not resist hating myself anymore. Because what we resist persists. My reality will surely change if I allow it to change.

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January 2014 (month review)

January has been a month of intense changes for me. I have never experienced such an exciting and challenging month. It also feels like the longest month ever – so many things happened that I can not believe that just a month ago I was a completely different person.

I have made lots of life changing decisions. At the beginning of this month I thought I was going to study medicine. Now I want to become a psychologist (see a previous post on how I chose my career for more details).

Besides the fact that I made such radical changes in my future career, I have also faced many different challenges. It feels like all of my fears that I was suppressing my entire life came to surface. I could no longer avoid them. I saw them clearly. Each day of this month I did some shadow work. I digged deep into my personality. I reconsidered everything that I knew about myself. I faced all of my fears. And the result from this process are astonishing. Things that were causing me to feel terrible about my life and myself no longer feel so bad. Actually, I started to enjoy them. I started to enjoy all the challenges because now I know that I am strong enough to achieve any goal.

For the first time in my life I can say “I love myself” and I really mean it. Nothing feels better than self love and self empowerment. It feels like you have your best friend with you all the time. And my best friend is myself. I no longer make myself feel guilty for things that I have done or have not done. I completely accept my past, I value it and appreciate it. Without everything I went through I would not be here where I am now. Every single experience, no matter how painful it was, served a positive purpose. And now I can see clearly why I chose to experience everything that I have experienced. I see why I chose to be born in this family, why I chose my appearance, why I chose this theme to explore in this life. I do not regret this decision.

I know that I have an infinite potential. My future is not set in stone. I know that it is a blank canvas and only I can decide what do I paint. I can feel the freedom to choose any perspective in any given moment. I feel the excitement that comes from knowing that I am the creator of my own reality. I know that whatever happens, I can always choose to experience it in a positive way. I no longer have any problems. I only face challenges. And every new challenge makes me even stronger and more aware of my true self. Life is really wonderful when you choose to see it in this way!

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How to change a belief

Last time I told you what beliefs are. Today I am going to tell you how to consciously change a belief. This process is based on Teal Scott’s teachings on how to change a belief. I find it really helpful and it works for me so I hope it will work for you too. The steps for changing a detrimental belief are:

1. Identify the belief. If you do not know how to do that, read the article on Shadow work that I wrote just recently.
It is important to work with a core belief. For example the thought “I hate speaking in public “is not a core belief. It is an emotional reaction to a core belief. A core belief can be “I am not good enough”. You always want to be working with the root belief when you are dealing with changing your beliefs. Because if you do not, it will just keep coming back.

2. Decide if the belief is beneficial or detrimental to you.

3. Decide what you would rather believe instead. Let your non beneficial beliefs be your inspiration towards beliefs you want to believe.

4. Determine the emotions that are holding you to the belief like glue. Decide if the emotional pay off is worth keeping the belief or not. For example: If I believe that I am not good enough, if I am being really honest about the emotional pay off it might look something like: I get pity when I feel like I am not good enough and that pity feels like people care about me. Or: when I think thoughts like I am not good enough, I give up the responsibility of having to try something new. You have to decide if the emotional pay off is worth the limitations of the beliefs which you are holding. If not, decide you are ready to let go of it. Nothing will help anybody to change something if they do not want to change it.

5. Seek out alternative evidence and alternative explanations which undermine the validity of your detrimental belief. Replace the evidence you’ve been using to back up and support your detrimental belief with evidence that undermines it! For example: If you believe that you are not good enough, this belief may be backed up by this kind of evidence: my mother always told my that I was not good enough. An alternate explanation may be something like this: When I made mistakes, it was an embarrassment to my mother. She was the one who felt as she was not good enough. I simply adopted this belief.

6. Look for evidence and proof to back up the beneficial belief which you would rather believe. And example would be: How am I good enough? I have had successes (you can list them). I have worth which is inate. The things that I have to say could really benefit other people. You want to look at as much proof and evidence that is possible. Make it your focus.

7. Use affirmations that work. These are affirmations which feel good to think, that you DO believe… NOT affirmations which make you more aware of where you aren’t and feel like a lie because they contradict your own sense of intelligence. Because when you believed for decades that you are not good enough and you say something like “I am good enough”, it sounds to you like a lie. You can use things like: I value myself because I care (if you do believe it).

8. Without immediately taking inventory of your reality (out of distrust of the process), simply giveyour self some time to let the new beliefs take root and ALLOW your reality to change. Soon after you change your thoughts, you’ll be looking at tangible proof in a reality that backs up your new thought to such a degree that the new thought will then become a firm belief. But this time, it will be one which benefits you and your life!