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My socially awkward moments – Part 2

Because my life is full of awkward moments and embarrassing situations, Ive decided to write a second part to my article “My socially awkward moments“. Here are another socially awkward stories from my life that are only a proof that Im a queen of social awkwardness. Enjoy!

The following story sounds like something you would see in a movie. I really wish I could say I made it up.  But I swear to God, it really happened. I attract these awkward situations like a magnet…

A few years ago we had a student exchange program in Germany. This embarrassing situation happened during my first dinner with the entire family of my German exchange partner. It was a formal setting with a large group of people. I was wearing a red dress and shoes with high heels.

This is an accurate example of how other girls walk in heels vs. how I walk in heels (Im the one on the left if you didnt guess it):

She's weak, ignore her

While we were making plans for dinner, I leaned back on my heels and, you guessed it, the heel of my boot snapped off. Just one. So I’m terrified, trying to think of what to do. Her mother and sister were sympathetic, but I was so embarrassed…

But it gets better.

I tend to act completely retarded when I eat in public.

Eating withyour mouth open

We ate a tomato soup for dinner and me being my awkward self, I splashed the whole soup all over my dress.

So here I am, walking around with one of the heels of my boots gone, tomato soup all over the front of my dress… I’m done. I want to leave.

Oh, but it gets better.

As I say goodbye to the family, I go to wave, and a hard metal bracelet I had on, FLIES OFF my wrist, and just misses hitting her mom in the head. Luckily, her whole family has a decent sense of humor. Her dad said something like: “We better get out of here before her clothes fall off!”


I was absolutely mortified. I got in my room and cried for twenty minutes.



Something I absolutely hate and Im sure that a lot of you had to deal with this as well: speaking to someone you dont know on the phone.

So… say I have to call a bank for some reason. After an hour of putting it off and procrastinating, I finally dial their number. Then the person at a bank answers the phone and theyre like: “Yes, of course I can help you! Im just gonna need to ask you a few questions first.” Then this person bombards me with hundreds of specific questions! And Im just sitting on the other line like: “Eh, hmmm, eeehh”. I get really flustered and I cant speak to them like Im a normal human being…


Another example of my exceptional social skills is that I fail at ordering food in restaurants. First of all I spend at least 30 minutes deciding exactly what I want before I speak to anybody. But when I go to order and they say what I want isnt available, or if they start asking if I want extras or if I want my food in a certain way… Well you know what, at this point you might as well just bring me a DAMN COCONUT because Ive lost every thought that was in my brain!

So I usually just end up saying yes and getting whatever they give me. Im sure one day I will end up with a coconut…


Im an expert in dropping things. I literally drop things for no reason! I will be walking along, perfectly fine, and then all of a sudden, my brain will just cut out and I will drop whatever Im holding.

Rafiki Drops Simba

Usually it isnt that much of a problem, but sometimes it can be a real limitation of my life.

For example, my mom asks me to carry some stuff she just bought from her car. Ill pick up a glass bottle and guess what, Ill drop it. Im carrying a basket full of laundry upstairs and in the middle of the stairs, Ill drop it. Or someone tells me: “Pass the salt”. And I drop it. A friend asks me: “Hold my bag for a second”  and I drop it on the floor. Its not easy keeping friends when youre like this…

Afterwords Im like: “Oh god, Im so sorry, I didnt mean to!”


Seriously, never let me hold anything of yours that you wouldnt want if got broken or dropped in a puddle…

But the worst thing is when this happens in public. Like in the following case: I was having lunch in a school cafeteria and I had to walk through the entire room to return back my plate. It was nothing unusual, I used to do this every single day. But on that particular day, my level of social awkwardness was especially high. As I was walking, I felt extremely awkward that people were watching me. And when people are looking at me, my body stops listening to me. Suddenly, I dropped all that I was carrying in my hands on the floor! My plates with rest of food on them, my cup, my bag… Everything was laying broken on the floor. And this happened in front of 100+ people and literally all of my teachers saw it. After a few moments of dead silence, the entire cafeteria burst out laughing.


All students and classmates were laughing like it was the funniest thing they have ever seen.

Busting Up

Some of my teachers were giggling, but some of them had this stare on their faces that screamed: “Ill kill you! What have you done?!”

In that moment I didnt know what to do. Ive tried to collect the broken pieces of everything, but it just wasnt working. Then some people came and started to clean up the mess Ive made. I could still hear people laughing. In that moment I felt like the most awkward person on the planet.

After this incident my fame in school has risen to incredible heights. Ive managed to make my already horrible reputation in school even worse.



I was in a class and we had a new teacher. The teacher asked us to introduce ourselves and say what we like to do. Everyone was saying the typical boring shit like go to clubs, dance, go out to bars, hang out with friends, sports, blah… Then I said something like this:

Me: “I like to study theories that catch my eye or fascinate me, like quantum physics, for example. Im especially intrigued with the Many-Worlds Interpretation. Im also interested in psychology, biology, astronomy and history. I would go on Wikipedia and start reading, but then I see something I am curious about and end up hopping from page to page for like three hours.” Then I realized that what I just said made me look like the biggest nerd on the planet. So in attempt to make myself look more normal, I added: “And I like traveling, listening to music, reading, writing and painting. ” (But I knew that it was too late, because everyone looked at me like I was a space alien).


The teacher: You have now established that you are the smartest person in the room.

*awkward laughter from the entire classroom*

Me: *mental face palm*

(Not really sure whether to take that as a compliment…?) But seriously, why couldnt I just say something normal? I told them the truth and sounded like a nerd…

So since then, I officially became the queen of school nerds.

cat animated GIF

Which is not the best position to be in, because everyone hates nerds.


Unless we were writing a test. Then suddenly everyone starts acting like theyre my best friend.

Friends Forever

Everyone wants to sit next to me, so they can copy my answers. Literally, before every exam our entire class had a fight who will get the privilege to sit next to me.


I give the WORST direction advice ever. If you ever get lost and need someone to tell you how you get to a specific place, the last person you want to ask is me. I hate it when someone stops me on the street and asks me where do they find this and that street. Like why would you do that to me? I wasnt ready for you to ask me this question. Why would you expect me to know where that is? DO I LOOK INTELLIGENT?! So I usually just end up pointing in a random direction and saying: “go this way”, just so they leave me alone. I dont know how many times I did this, but I apologize to all people I caused serious trouble because of my awkwardness. I‘m sorry…


What is the thing I am especially bad at? Dating. I mean it doesnt happen very often because, OBVIOUSLY, who would ask ME on a date? But if it happens, I make sure that I make a complete fool of myself. Usually I dont make it past the first date, because I embarrass myself so efficiently, that these people never want to see me again. Like with that one guy I talked about in the first part of this series on which I spilled my drink and then ran away. Its like when Im on a date, I lose all my intelligence, all my charm and all there is left is my awkwardness.

Another embarrassing date happened when I was at a summer camp. Dont get me wrong, I enjoyed the camp, I had a time of my life. But there was too much social interaction. 24 hours all days a week was incredibly energy draining for me. After two weeks of spending zero time alone, the only thing I craved was some alone time with my favorite book. One day I was in especially bad mood when one guy asked me out. I was soo low on energy and soo annoyed, that the last thing I wanted is to go somewhere with this guy. I knew that acting like a normal person is not going to be possible tonight. So I said “no” many times, but this guy seemed to really like me and he just didnt want to go away! So I was forced to agree.

But this time I didnt get nervous and I didnt try to impress him. I decided to do a complete opposite. I acted like a bitch on purpose. I know, it doesnt sound like me, Im usually very nice to people and Im never mean to anyone.

But this time, all I wanted was to be left alone. So I did everything I could that made me look like horrible person. I didnt talk to him very much and when I did, I made sure that I say something rude or offensive. I played the role of a cold hearted self centered narcissist very well and I think that at the end of the evening, this guy was so freaked out, that he never spoke to me again.


Well, now I feel bad for that poor guy that I treated so badly for my own selfish reasons…

nick miller do i regret it yes gif

I hope he didnt take it personally. I can go very far from who I truly am if I dont get my alone time and if you overstimulate me with too much social interaction. So which lesson did you get from this story? Never force an introvert to socially interact with you if they are low on energy and need some time to recharge. Never underestimate the things we can do when you force us to go out!

I made a complete fool out of myself when I was getting my haircut a few years ago. Hair salons make me nervous as there are people everywhere and there are mirrors everywhere. The lighting in that salon made my face look really terrible and I just felt like I looked a mess compared to the hair stylists. 

When I get nervous and socially anxious I become really inarticulate and have a stutter. I didn’t have much to say to the girl who was cutting my hair and there were some points when I literally sounded retarded. 

Why do these things always happen to me?!!



Teal’s workshop in Prague

On Saturday I had the opportunity to attend Teals workshop in Prague. As many of you know, Im her huge fan. When I found out that Teal is coming to Czech republic, I knew that I have to go. There is no way I would miss such a great opportunity. If Im lucky, maybe I can meet her and ask her a question… I was hoping for it. Two months before the day of the workshop I started to count days which are left until Teals workshop :D.

The day had finally arrived and I visited Prague. I had a chance to see Teal two days in a row. On Friday she had a presentation about the importance of emotions at the Festival Evolution. You can watch it here:

I had a very good impression from Teal on Friday. Not that I have expected she isnt good live :D. I expected her to be awesome. And she was awesome! 🙂 But it surprised me that she seemed so humble, so fragile and so vulnerable. From her videos I had the impression she has a sassy leader personality. And there she was, so innocent, like a princess. 🙂

I enjoyed her presentation very much. Ive learned a lot that day. She was using a simple language to make it easier for the translator to translate it to Czech, so it was much more understandable for me. I could understand her teachings even more deeply.

While she was talking on stage, she also made eye contact with members of the audience. She looked into my direction many times and I felt like she was staring right into my eyes a few times. In that moment, I almost suffered from a heart attack and fell of my chair! 😀 Her stare was so intense, I felt like she was seeing my soul. But considering the way Teal sees the world, its clear to me why she looked towards me so often. Me and my friend, which was sitting right next to me, must have been radiating the strongest vibration of love and appreciation in the room :). Its hard to miss that vibration! :D. I bet that most people came to the presentation just out of curiosity. They may have seen a few Teal videos and thought she was interesting, so theyve decided to come see her live. But I have seen each and every one of her videos (multiple times), Ive read all of her blog posts, I stalk her everywhere I can on the internet… Im such a big fan of hers, you could hardly find a bigger one :D. From the beginning to the end of the presentation, my mind was filled with thoughts of love and appreciation for Teal and what shes doing. I was so excited to sit in the same room just a few meters from her. I bet I was radiating there like a nuclear plant :D.

The workshop took place on Saturday morning. I was surprised how many people came to the workshop. There were people from all over the world that gathered just to see Teal. From so many people, I couldnt find any of my internet friends. I was scared that I will be left alone and I wont get to know anybody. Thankfully I was wrong. Right behind me was sitting a group of young English speaking people. I spoke to them and found out that they come from different countries all over the world. It was interesting to listen to their stories about how they came across Teal’s teachings. Im so happy I could meet these wonderful people :).

The workshop was in form of questions and answers. Everyone who had a question raised their hand and Teal picked one person whose question was most in alignment with the vibration of the whole group. Teal described it that the person with the right question lights up for her. Then that person went on stage and discussed the issue with Teal.

I could relate to all the questions asked on that workshop. Most people asked personal questions. When we have uncovered the root of the problem by each question, we discovered that we all have the same problem –  we dont feel good enough. We feel unloved, we feel like theres something wrong with us. Ive realized in the middle of the workshop how normal I actually am :D. I used to think I was the only one struggling with self worth and feelings of worthlessness. But in reality there is no person on this planet that hasnt experienced such thing at least once in their life. We are all struggling with the same thing. Ive learned many new things about myself in the workshop. Ive realized towards what kind of things I have resistance and how should I work on myself. It was an intense healing process.

I was raising my hand throughout the whole workshop hoping to ask my question. But Teal always picked someone else. The end of the workshop was near and I was afraid that I wont get the chance to ask my question. When Teal said we have time for the last question only, I was focusing all of my attention on being picked. And it worked! Teal picked me and my question! 🙂 Now I had to go on stage, sit next to her and discuss my problem with her. I was very nervous because I hate being the center of attention. So many people were looking at me and there I was sitting in front of Teal. She was scanning me with her eyes and I felt like she was seeing deep corners of my soul. It was almost like I was sitting on that stage naked! 😀 I knew I had to calm down because Teal is surely able to see my panicking thoughts. But it didnt help and I literally felt like the most awkward person on this planet while I was sitting there. I started to calm down when I was sitting there for quite some time. I started to enjoy it and I was so excited that Teal now knows about my existence and Im able to talk to her! 🙂

Teal and I talking on stage

I asked Teal a question about young people in this society. I told her about my sister and how my parents are forcing her to only learn math, because that is the subject she is worst at. Shes doing good in all other subjects, but my parents are only forcing her to solve math problems and take extra lessons. They ban her from doing anything she enjoys – she cant go out, she cant meet her friends, she can’t use the internet… They come up with all sorts of punishments to force her to do what she hates to do the most. I can relate to the case of my sister because its the same thing my parents did to me. Our parents think that they own us. They think that they know what is best for us. And we, the children cant do anything about it. We cant just quit going to school, then our parents will go to jail… When an adult person says that they hate their job, Teal would say that they should quit that job and start doing something they enjoy instead. But what can a child do when they hate school? (Im sure most kids hate school). We cant just quit. So I asked Teal what to do in such case.

Teal told me that she understands my situation. In this society, the educational system is horrible. We send our children to jail. We force them to learn things that are mostly absolutely unnecessary for our lifes. Teal admitted that she also was horrible at math in school :D. And in real life you dont need math, unless of course you choose some math oriented career :D.

According to Teal the most beneficial thing for my sister to do is to release resistance she has towards math. She can play a game where she pretends to be a science nerd. How would that science nerd act in solving a math problem? Thanks to that kind of attitude math isnt that bad. Another good idea is to reward yourself after successfully solving a math problem. Teal demonstrated it on the example of Skittles (but she told us that sweets our unhealthy, maybe we can try it with something more natural). But we can play a game that after each accomplishment we eat or do something enjoyable. We have to do anything that makes that subject more acceptable for us.

Teal answering my question

I think Teal said something like that to me. Im not so sure about it because while I was sitting there, I was kind of in an altered state of consciousness :D. I didnt experience time normally and I didnt even realize which words were coming out of my mouth. It was all so unreal. I still cant believe it happened :D. But it must have happened, I have photos as proof. At the end Teal hugged me! 🙂 Its a dream come true for me :). Just before the workshop began, I met a girl that said she hugged Teal. I was so jealous and I didnt know what can I do to get a hug from Teal. But I got it! Yay :D. It was amazing.

On the next day, Blake invited us (people from the workshop) to go on a walk around Prague. It was amazing, Ive met people from all over the world. Theres nothing better than finding people who are on the same wave length as you are and think in a similar way. I felt like I have finally returned to my home planet :D. I never felt such a connection with anyone like I did with these people that Ive met in these 3 days. Even though I talked to some of them just for a little while, I still felt like they understand me better than some people I know for years.

Tealers in Prague

Teals workshop was a wonderful experience! I dont regret anything at all. If Teal ever comes back or if she visits my country (Slovakia), Im coming without a shadow of a doubt. Its worth it just for the amazing people you meet here. And Teal is absolutely amazing and it’s awesome to see her live. 

I also want to thank everybody who made this workshop possible. Youve done a great job. I havent met anyone who wouldnt enjoy the workshop. To all who participated in the workshop – huge THANKS! :).