Archive | April 2014

Birthday

It’s your birthday. The one day of the year that is yours. Birthdays make you think about your life. They make you reflect, even if you don’t want to.

It was this time last year when I completely redesigned my life. I decided I wanted to create a new me, a new lifestyle, so one year down the track, it’s my birthday again and I am on that journey. What have I learnt?

To achieve what you want to achieve and get what you want out of life takes dedication and commitment over time. That is the recipe.  Those who are successful are the ones that are doing what they are passionate about and they stick to it and keep doing it. Do what you love, because if you don’t, that dedication over time through something that you are bitter about is not going to be good for your health.

LEARN TO LISTEN TO YOUR EMOTIONS

You must listen to your emotions. Make your own happiness your priority. Ask yourself: How am I feeling right now? If you’re feeling good, it means you’re on the right track and you’re going to achieve your dreams. If you’re feeling negative emotion, it means that the vibration that you are offering isn’t in alignment with your true self and therefore it isn’t in alignment with your desires. But don’t resist your negative emotions. When you’re feeling bad, it doesn’t mean that you have failed or something has gone terribly wrong. Its just an alarm that you are off track. Embrace your negative emotions, let them deliver their message. Once you clearly get the message, negative emotions have no reason to stick around any longer!

You have to make each day a good day. We are rushing around trying to achieve so much and do so much, then wonder where the time went and why we are so tired. Make each day a great day, and create the energy you need by getting the balance right through your focus, good thoughts and a healthy lifestyle.

Birthdays are a day of the year when you get to decide, “Am I on the right track?’ Am I doing what I love?”
I can honestly say that I love what I am doing, and I am so passionate about sharing these things with you. I am loving the path that I am on, and being on a journey that I can share with you the knowledge that I learn along the way. Life is short, you have to do what you love, and love what you do.

MY HIGHLIGHTS OF BEING 18

Here are a few highlights that have happened over the year:

  • I successfully graduated high school.
  • I went to Dubai.
  • I started my first year of collage.
  • I’ve changed my mind about what I want to study million times :D.
  • I’ve figured out what is my purpose on this planet (hopefully).
  • I’ve learned many new things especially from Abraham, Bashar and Teal.
  • I started to love myself and appreciate myself more.
  • I’ve realized that I am the creator of my reality more deeply.
  • I’ve gained so much self awareness.
  • I started this blog :).
  • I’ve met amazing people online :).
  • I went to Teal’s workshop :).
  • A lot of synchronicities happened.
  • I can see now that the universe loves me and supports me in every way.

And what are my plans for the future? I want to practice positive focus and appreciation more often. I want to wake up in the morning and spend my first few minutes of the new day appreciating. I want to stop obsessing so much about self love and rather become “The self that loves”. In other words, I want to stop looking for love outside of me. I want to become the vibration of love instead and then self love becomes very natural and easy.

I believe without a shadow of a doubt that my 19. year on this planet will be the best so far! 🙂

Start a Body Revolution!

Is physical appearance really that important? Is our worth dependent on it?

Of course not. A huge majority of the human population doesn’t look like models which are propagated by the media. If only people which are considered beautiful by societys standards were worthy, it would mean that most of us are unworthy and we don’t deserve to exist.

That of course is not true. We all know that people who don’t look anything like Hollywood actors can be people with an incredible personality, people, that no one would call ugly, because their inner beauty outshines their physical imperfections.

In my opinion, the most attractive people are the ones who know that their physical appearance isn’t the most attractive thing about them. They have a certain kind of confidence, they’re usually more fun to hang out with, and they’re the kind of people who are ready to love you for who you are. 


It’s all too easy to buy into the belief that your body is just not good enough. It’s too easy to feel inadequate, like you need to constantly change who you are and what you look like to fit an ideal of beauty.

Lets stop this madness! Start a body revolution! Times are changing and self-hate is NOT part of the new paradigm.


That something that we all should realize. Your worth doesn’t depend on your appearance! We are all perfect. As cliché as it sounds, we are. Especially YOU, the reader of this article. Never let anyone tell you otherwise. You are perfect in every single way. We all have qualities that make us unique, we were made for a reason. Remember it! 🙂

I actually wrote a whole guide on how to love your body in the past. There I describe many tips and practices that help you to accept your body completely, no matter what you look like :).

I came to the conclusion that the most beautiful thing a person can wear is a smile :). And happiness is the best make-up!

It’s really true. When we are happy, it doesn’t matter what we look like, we still make a good impression on people. In the moment when we are truly happy, we have no resistance towards what we look like. And when we don’t contain a vibration of resistance toward our appearance, we aren’t a vibrational match to people which would call us ugly. We will be a match to people that compliment us instead. And the next time someone tells you: “You look pretty today!”, you can respond “Thanks, I know” :D.

Why do we hate our bodies?

In the previous article, I was talking about the obsession our society has with physical appearance. It is obvious that it is so. Now I want to go even deeper into this subject .

I think that these days our obsession with physical appearance is worse than ever. More and more 12-year-old girls are going on diets because they believe that your weigh determines your worth. But when all you see is a body type that only two percent of the population has, it’s difficult to remember what’s real and what’s reasonable to expect of yourself and everyone else.

Before social networks, we mostly had images of impossibly perfect celebrities. We would pass these images on billboards, watch them on TV, look at them in magazines, but we weren’t sitting around staring at them for hours every day.

I think that social media hurt because young people are now having their bodies judged online in addition to being judged in person, which causes them to feel trapped. People also say things they’d never say to your face. It’s like Facebook gives them a screen that totally blocks out their emotions…they don’t have to see how I’d react when they say something negative about me. We are relying on judgments from people we’ll never meet to determine our worth.

The standards that society has set on what we call “pretty” are very hard to meet. There are few people who are naturally pretty and all other people could probably be considered the uglier ones.

For years, we’ve acknowledged the fact that no matter how much we try to temper it, girls face immense pressure to look a certain way – from the media, Hollywood, and probably most of all each other – a pressure that many would say starts early and doesn’t ever really end.

Body image is no light subject. There are people who are suffering legitimate illnesses, mental and physical, relating to how they appear. 

I’ve read many stories of girls that want to kill themselves because they hate the way they look. They are in such a deep place of self hate.  I’ve heard of a girl that avoids mirrors and windows because whenever she sees her own face she wants to vomit. She can’t even stand people looking at her. People laugh at her all the time, boys teas her for being ugly. She cries herself to sleep at night and even cuts herself because she hates that she is not pretty.

It hurts me that we as a society are causing this suffering that people experience regarding their physical appearances. 

The question is, what do we do about it?  What is the solution to this problem? What can we do to stop this insane obsession we have with physical appearance?

I have been thinking about this for days and days, trying to come up with a solution. But the more I was focused on the problem, the more upset and angry I was becoming. I was casually walking on the street when I saw a billboard with a model on it. I instantly felt like I want to destroy that billboard for spreading the propaganda of plastic beauty. When I watched a movie, I was so angry at the fact that only beautiful people by society’s standards play leading roles and the normal looking people play the dorky ones in the background. Whenever I encountered good looking girls in a bus, I was getting more upset because I felt like society pressures us into uniformity.

I became so angry that everyone is obsessed with their appearance. But most of all, I was angry at myself. My hate for everyone was just a reflection of my own self hate. I recognized myself in all of these people I was hating on. I was just the same as all other girls. And I hated it about myself. I felt like it made me a shallow stupid person. I couldnt stand it about myself. When I wasnt dressed well and when I wasnt wearing any make up, I felt ugly and unworthy. And when I was dressed well and looking good according to society’s expectations, I felt like an attention seeking whore. I felt like because of me there are so many people suffering.

Then I asked myself, what the hell am I doing? It doesnt matter what I look like, I always find a reason why to hate my body. I obviously have a problem.

Then I have realized how ridiculous this is. The only reason why we all care so much about our looks is because we don’t feel good enough. We think that we must live up to certain expectations in order to be considered beautiful. And not to be considered as beautiful means to me that no one will love us, we will end up alone and rejected.

Therefore it’s only natural that for us females it’s so important to look good. Most of us have a similar belief, that to be ugly means not to deserve love. That’s why we care so much about our looks. From our perspective our entire existence is dependent on it.

We have to realize that it’s not about what we look like. It’s all about self worth. We don’t have to change our bodies in order to be worthy and loved. We just need to learn how to appreciate ourselves more.

In the next article I’m going to tell you more about what you can do to love and accept your body.

Sorry if this post was too depressing, I just wanted to explore the shadows that cause so much pain in our society. I think that it’s important to have a clear image of what’s going on and how many people are suffering because of our crazy beauty obsessed society.

Our society is obsessed with looks

Today I want to talk to you about beauty and body image. I couldnt help but notice that our society is obsessed with physical appearance.

As a young female, there are some societal expectations that I am expected to live up to in order to be considered attractive. I have to be thin, well-developed, have clear skin and shave my legs. Basically, I can’t be my natural self. 

Who makes these rules?  In the Middle Ages, obesity was considered attractive. They also didn’t have television or magazines in the Middle Ages! 

It is well known that a cause of this obsession with beauty stems from the media. Everyday, we are bombarded with beauty advertisements in commercials, magazines, billboards and social media websites, such as Facebook, Twitter and YouTube. The beauty, fashion, and entertainment industry are famous for hiring women based on their looks. Even so, looks are important for all jobs and almost all areas of life. In magazines and on TV, celebrities are constantly being ranked on their looks.

Girls get praised for their appearance rather than their accomplishments. This can cause self hate and hate towards other females. The emphasis on physical attractiveness is detrimental to mental (and sometimes physical) health. The effects of the media on young girls’ development  has led to a rise in eating disorders, low self esteem and depression.

All of my friends have complained about their bodies at one point or another, commenting that their thighs were too big or their breasts were too small. There are very few young females who are completely satisfied with their natural bodies, and even fewer that have always been that way. 

The truth is most of us will not look like this. BUT why do we have to abide by what society says is beauty? This is not a healthy obsession, it is one that causes pain. We spend money on make-up, weight-loss pills, anything that will make us feel better and more beautiful. We as females try to hide any imperfection that we may have by using make-up, clothing to hide any stomach we may have, paint our nails to cover discolouring, straightening our hair thinking it will change us etc.

Another reason for our society’s fixation on appearance is our need to impress others. It is when we value another person’s opinion of our looks that we put on the most makeup and spend the most time selecting our clothing. Most women will spend time getting ready if they know they are going out and might be seeing people. When there is no one to impress, we feel much less need to be attractive by society’s standards. I am completely willing to go downstairs and eat breakfast with my family straight out of bed, messy hair and uncovered pimples and all. It is a much different case, though, when this family breakfast is at a restaurant where I might run into people I know.

I think it’s unfortunate that we live in a world obsessed with beauty. Many girls will try to become what they see, because they are not satisfied already with themselves in the mirror.  I find it funny how we don’t hear about males going through severe self-esteem issues like girls. Maybe this is because they’re more confident or because we do not judge men by their looks but by strength and wealth.
You would think that being pretty solves everything. We have this image in our heads that beautiful people are happy and have amazing lives. But that is not always the truth. Even being beautiful can be a curse. Here are some reasons why:
  • Jealous girls gossip about you.
  • People want to be your friend for your looks and not for the person you are.
  • You feel you always have to have a perfect personality to live up to others high expectations.
  • People expect you to be less talented.
  • Guys are afraid of being rejected by you since you are too pretty so you barely get approached by intelligent and normal people.
  • Being ogled at 24/7 by random guys.
  • Girls don’t want to hang out with someone more attractive than they are…
  • Being stalked by a overweight 60-something dude that seems like a rapist.

So as you can see, our obsession with physical appearance is harmful to everyone. I don’t think it’s good in any way that we pay so much attention to body image. 

We are going to look for the solution to this problem in an upcoming article!

False self vs. Real self

Teal released a new video on false self vs. real self yesterday. It got me thinking about myself and my life. Do I really know who I am or do I just think that I know who I am?

It is true that many of us dont know who we truly are. As Teal says in the video “We have created false selves that are so good at what they do; even we have mistaken them for ourselves. We have a major problem differentiating between our false self and our real self. ”

I know that this is very true. I did exactly the same thing. When I was very little I learned to distrust my emotional guidance system. I felt something, but my parents told me I shouldnt feel this way. So I thought that something must be wrong with me. I began to feel ashamed for my true self. In order to avoid punishment I created a false self. Thanks to this false self I have gotten reward and I was accepted to society. After some time I started to identify with my false self so deeply that I completely forgot who I really am. I have mistaken my false self with my real self.

I identified with my false self until I was 14 years old. Then suddenly something has awakened within me and I started to question myself. I started to ask myself questions like: “Who am I? , What am I doing here?, What is the purpose of my life?, What do I like and what do I dislike?”. I realized that I know nothing about myself. Everything that other people told me about myself was not true. It wasnt true because it didnt feel good to me.

This is a list of things I used to identify with and other people used to identify with me:

  • I am shy and antisocial.
  • I dont have my own opinions.
  • I have no special gifts and talents.
  • I have good grades and I am a hard worker.
  • I am moral and I conform easily.
  • I follow societys rules and do what people tell me to do.

For many years I thought that this is who I am. This is what my parents, my friends, classmates and everyone I knew told me about myself.

Once I started to question myself, I could see that none of these things are actually true for me. I wasnt born shy. My shyness is a result of self constriction and of my fear to fully express myself. I am not antisocial. I love to communicate with people and built deep bonds with them. I just didnt have friends at that time because of my belief that no one would find me interesting enough to have me as a friend. And its not true that I have no gifts or talents. I was just too afraid to express them. Im good at painting, writing, Im a good listener, I give good advice to people, I am very empathic and creative… I just didnt know these things about myself because I never tried them. And the biggest lie of all: I have no opinions. This is absolutely not true for me. I have so many opinions on all aspects of life. I didnt express them to others because I was afraid that they will think I am crazy.

At the core of my being I am not conformative and I dont like following societys rules. I am a non conformist and a visionary. I believe that most systems we have on this planet now need to be reformed. I think that many rules that we have in this society are highly illogical and nonsensical. I love to come up with new ideas how our world could function in a new and brighter way.

I started to explore what I like and what I dislike. For example, all my life I thought that I dislike the color pink. Everyone around me hated pink and said that liking pink makes you a shallow girly girl that only cares about her own appearance. Of course I didnt like to be seen as a shallow girly girl so every time someone asked me if I like pink, I said no. I didnt wear pink, I didnt buy anything that has a pink color on it. But then in the process of questioning myself I discovered that I actually love pink! Now what? Does it make me a bad person? I have realized that there is nothing wrong with color pink. It represents love, compassion, nurturing and caring. It fits my real personality perfectly. Now I am not ashamed to wear pink. I actually painted my room pink and I love it. And since I don’t consider myself shallow and attention seeking, no one has ever called me that! 🙂

Another surprising thing I discovered about myself is about the music that I like. I used to think that I dislike mainstream pop music. I thought that pop is only for stupid party people and Im surely not one of them. Its true that I dislike 70% of songs they usually play on the radio, but from time to time, I find a mainstream pop song that I like. Sometimes I get mad at myself for liking something I shouldnt like. It took me some time until I accepted this part of myself. There is nothing wrong with that. And I also had to face the fact that I like many music genres at the same time. Most people have their one favorite genre. But me not. I like almost all types of music, even the ones that should contradict themselves! 😀 I like classical music, but I also like popular music. I love chill out music, new age music, mantras and meditation music, but I also love metal :D. I also dont mind rock music and sometimes I listen to rap. I adore celtic music, oriental music, indian music, arabic music… I like almost anything when it comes to music! I still dont understand how is that possible. I dont know how can someone like so many music genres at the same time, but I do like them and I cant do anything about it. I just have to accept that I like many things.

Pursuing the path of self discovery takes a lot of courage. Mostly we find out, that everything we thought we know about ourselves is wrong. Its like we lived our lives in illusion. We have to give in to uncertainty and be able to question everything we think we know about ourselves. At the end its worth it! A man who doesnt know who he truly is cant be truly happy. Only someone who knows who he is and follows his dreams and his emotional guidance system can know what happiness is. Thats why pursuing the path of self discovery is the most risky and also the best thing you could ever do for yourself! Now is the time to question everything we think we know about ourselves!

Teal’s workshop in Prague

On Saturday I had the opportunity to attend Teals workshop in Prague. As many of you know, Im her huge fan. When I found out that Teal is coming to Czech republic, I knew that I have to go. There is no way I would miss such a great opportunity. If Im lucky, maybe I can meet her and ask her a question… I was hoping for it. Two months before the day of the workshop I started to count days which are left until Teals workshop :D.

The day had finally arrived and I visited Prague. I had a chance to see Teal two days in a row. On Friday she had a presentation about the importance of emotions at the Festival Evolution. You can watch it here:

I had a very good impression from Teal on Friday. Not that I have expected she isnt good live :D. I expected her to be awesome. And she was awesome! 🙂 But it surprised me that she seemed so humble, so fragile and so vulnerable. From her videos I had the impression she has a sassy leader personality. And there she was, so innocent, like a princess. 🙂

I enjoyed her presentation very much. Ive learned a lot that day. She was using a simple language to make it easier for the translator to translate it to Czech, so it was much more understandable for me. I could understand her teachings even more deeply.

While she was talking on stage, she also made eye contact with members of the audience. She looked into my direction many times and I felt like she was staring right into my eyes a few times. In that moment, I almost suffered from a heart attack and fell of my chair! 😀 Her stare was so intense, I felt like she was seeing my soul. But considering the way Teal sees the world, its clear to me why she looked towards me so often. Me and my friend, which was sitting right next to me, must have been radiating the strongest vibration of love and appreciation in the room :). Its hard to miss that vibration! :D. I bet that most people came to the presentation just out of curiosity. They may have seen a few Teal videos and thought she was interesting, so theyve decided to come see her live. But I have seen each and every one of her videos (multiple times), Ive read all of her blog posts, I stalk her everywhere I can on the internet… Im such a big fan of hers, you could hardly find a bigger one :D. From the beginning to the end of the presentation, my mind was filled with thoughts of love and appreciation for Teal and what shes doing. I was so excited to sit in the same room just a few meters from her. I bet I was radiating there like a nuclear plant :D.

The workshop took place on Saturday morning. I was surprised how many people came to the workshop. There were people from all over the world that gathered just to see Teal. From so many people, I couldnt find any of my internet friends. I was scared that I will be left alone and I wont get to know anybody. Thankfully I was wrong. Right behind me was sitting a group of young English speaking people. I spoke to them and found out that they come from different countries all over the world. It was interesting to listen to their stories about how they came across Teal’s teachings. Im so happy I could meet these wonderful people :).

The workshop was in form of questions and answers. Everyone who had a question raised their hand and Teal picked one person whose question was most in alignment with the vibration of the whole group. Teal described it that the person with the right question lights up for her. Then that person went on stage and discussed the issue with Teal.

I could relate to all the questions asked on that workshop. Most people asked personal questions. When we have uncovered the root of the problem by each question, we discovered that we all have the same problem –  we dont feel good enough. We feel unloved, we feel like theres something wrong with us. Ive realized in the middle of the workshop how normal I actually am :D. I used to think I was the only one struggling with self worth and feelings of worthlessness. But in reality there is no person on this planet that hasnt experienced such thing at least once in their life. We are all struggling with the same thing. Ive learned many new things about myself in the workshop. Ive realized towards what kind of things I have resistance and how should I work on myself. It was an intense healing process.

I was raising my hand throughout the whole workshop hoping to ask my question. But Teal always picked someone else. The end of the workshop was near and I was afraid that I wont get the chance to ask my question. When Teal said we have time for the last question only, I was focusing all of my attention on being picked. And it worked! Teal picked me and my question! 🙂 Now I had to go on stage, sit next to her and discuss my problem with her. I was very nervous because I hate being the center of attention. So many people were looking at me and there I was sitting in front of Teal. She was scanning me with her eyes and I felt like she was seeing deep corners of my soul. It was almost like I was sitting on that stage naked! 😀 I knew I had to calm down because Teal is surely able to see my panicking thoughts. But it didnt help and I literally felt like the most awkward person on this planet while I was sitting there. I started to calm down when I was sitting there for quite some time. I started to enjoy it and I was so excited that Teal now knows about my existence and Im able to talk to her! 🙂

Teal and I talking on stage

I asked Teal a question about young people in this society. I told her about my sister and how my parents are forcing her to only learn math, because that is the subject she is worst at. Shes doing good in all other subjects, but my parents are only forcing her to solve math problems and take extra lessons. They ban her from doing anything she enjoys – she cant go out, she cant meet her friends, she can’t use the internet… They come up with all sorts of punishments to force her to do what she hates to do the most. I can relate to the case of my sister because its the same thing my parents did to me. Our parents think that they own us. They think that they know what is best for us. And we, the children cant do anything about it. We cant just quit going to school, then our parents will go to jail… When an adult person says that they hate their job, Teal would say that they should quit that job and start doing something they enjoy instead. But what can a child do when they hate school? (Im sure most kids hate school). We cant just quit. So I asked Teal what to do in such case.

Teal told me that she understands my situation. In this society, the educational system is horrible. We send our children to jail. We force them to learn things that are mostly absolutely unnecessary for our lifes. Teal admitted that she also was horrible at math in school :D. And in real life you dont need math, unless of course you choose some math oriented career :D.

According to Teal the most beneficial thing for my sister to do is to release resistance she has towards math. She can play a game where she pretends to be a science nerd. How would that science nerd act in solving a math problem? Thanks to that kind of attitude math isnt that bad. Another good idea is to reward yourself after successfully solving a math problem. Teal demonstrated it on the example of Skittles (but she told us that sweets our unhealthy, maybe we can try it with something more natural). But we can play a game that after each accomplishment we eat or do something enjoyable. We have to do anything that makes that subject more acceptable for us.

Teal answering my question

I think Teal said something like that to me. Im not so sure about it because while I was sitting there, I was kind of in an altered state of consciousness :D. I didnt experience time normally and I didnt even realize which words were coming out of my mouth. It was all so unreal. I still cant believe it happened :D. But it must have happened, I have photos as proof. At the end Teal hugged me! 🙂 Its a dream come true for me :). Just before the workshop began, I met a girl that said she hugged Teal. I was so jealous and I didnt know what can I do to get a hug from Teal. But I got it! Yay :D. It was amazing.

On the next day, Blake invited us (people from the workshop) to go on a walk around Prague. It was amazing, Ive met people from all over the world. Theres nothing better than finding people who are on the same wave length as you are and think in a similar way. I felt like I have finally returned to my home planet :D. I never felt such a connection with anyone like I did with these people that Ive met in these 3 days. Even though I talked to some of them just for a little while, I still felt like they understand me better than some people I know for years.

Tealers in Prague

Teals workshop was a wonderful experience! I dont regret anything at all. If Teal ever comes back or if she visits my country (Slovakia), Im coming without a shadow of a doubt. Its worth it just for the amazing people you meet here. And Teal is absolutely amazing and it’s awesome to see her live. 

I also want to thank everybody who made this workshop possible. Youve done a great job. I havent met anyone who wouldnt enjoy the workshop. To all who participated in the workshop – huge THANKS! :).

 

The God spark

Today I feel like I have uncovered the secret to all relationships :). I know, it sounds monumental, and to me it feels monumental, because it solves all of my problems.

Inside of all of us, there is a pure little seed. I call it “the God spark”. In this life, we each have something so precious. If we were just to witness it in each other. Really witness it. For example that person at the shopping market today. What if you looked them in the eye and said: “How are you today?” Just connect with that spark inside each other. Because that God spark inside of me, inside of you, inside of all of us, it wants to see itself. It wants to witness itself, it wants to talk to itself, it wants to feel itself, it wants to touch itself. It wants to connect to itself.

I can’t tell you how many times in relationships, I cared much more about myself than about other people. I worried about what they are going to think about me, what if they won’t like me, what if they think something is wrong with me… I was so lost in my own fears, I didn’t really listen to the other person, I didn’t really care who they are and how are they feeling. I only cared about how I look in this conversation.

But I have realized that even if they don’t like me, how does it matter? The truth is that if a person dislikes me, it only means that this person isn’t in touch with their own God spark. Someone who is in touch with their God spark will see nothing but infinite potential and goodness in another person. So if someone doesn’t like me, it says nothing about me, but everything about them! People will love me, people will hate me, but none of it will ever have anything to do with me!

The most important thing to do is to become more aware of what you’re seeing in others. That’s the thing you want to be aware of.
Don’t worry about what other people are seeing in you. Don’t worry about the love they’re giving you, or the love they’re not giving you. Let your awareness be about what you’re putting out. Let your awareness be about how much you’re loving.

Don’t be running around saying: “Who loves me or who doesn’t love me? You could rather be saying: “Who do I love and what is it about you, that I love?’”

There’s only one of us here. The great cosmic joke is that we think there are many of us, when really, there is just one. 🙂